I failed Ani151 again. but you know what, that wont stop me from attempting to resubmit. I will compose a frugal email to Dom not because I wanna be sarcastic with regards to my Facebook posts about the higher education, but because Dom is not someone who wanna listen to 'excuses'. Me neither, so I know. However, I dont think anyone should be denied of a second chance. Everyone deserves a chance to try. For as long as someone continues to keep trying, I will always be willing to give them a second chance even though it will kill me — I may be strong in vocally announcing my dismay and disdain at having to waste my time again when someone wants to try again, but at the end of the day Im sure I will definitely grant them another change.

my intended email to Dom later tonight should go something like this:

Hi Dom

I am Fah. I have handed up my previous works for resubmission.
I am aware that I did not meet the minimum grade for resubmission but I would like to request that you have a look at them. I ask that you grant me the minimum grade to pass this course and see that my struggles with animation is slowly improving. Please acknowledge my growth and improvements in animation, and allow me to carry on advancing into my years of learning in Digipen.

Sincerely,
Fah

I might have to tweak the email a bit more because theres a lot of venom in there. hurr. well. /fingers crossed/

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it happened. i dreamt of you.

you placed me outside of the class.

and walked away with tiny.





i dont know what terrifies me more.

the fact that i know you can easily lift me around

or the fact that you can take me places that i dont want to.





i need to focus on my assignments now, and you yours. i hope to not see you for the next few days.

i hope i can stop myself from talking to you; because already ive gone and let you know through text this horrible dream

and that
you terrified me.

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my ears and mind are set. they have found peace for a bit. Epik might have changed for a bit but change is constant. and you cant talk about staying mono-constant when your favourite trio are in a flipping colourful company like YG. things are bound to change, some things are bound to be filled with a little more colour that usual, but it's good.

it's a good change. and I had my share of good change today. it's time to make use and apply this new breathe. get down, get out and get changin'. the world's still a mixture of fuzzy clouds and empty eyes but Im sure I'll manage again eventually. float on for as long as I like. I'll have to step down to earth again eventually. aaand the cycle will continue. the process, however, will change. it should get better.

it better be.


haters be hatin', potatoes be potatin', epik flyin' lovin'

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