he strained his neck, stretching out the best he could to look at something which passed him behind. he coiled back, breathed, and steady his gaze again. coming down from the mini-bus, the boys walked into the building and into the dark setting.

after their second rehearsal stage was done, he felt his strength leave again. this is not good, he thought. why now?

himchan walked up to him. the handsome smile tore off his face when he saw daehyun's disturbed pace. himchan is now troubled. moments later, youngjae bounced next to him. he was confused at himchan's twisted expression. the brain looked over in the direction of his hyung's gaze and saw an unsettling sight. he stole glances between the two. one last look at the motherly figure and he knew something was wrong — with daehyun. zelo strutted over indifferently. he was carrying a box of candy chocolates, smiling and munching noisily. in his attempt to rap with a mouth full of crunched chocolate, he fussed about until he saw his two hyungs fretting over his vocal hyung. puzzled, he swallowed and started reading the atmosphere. the kidster feels strange. now he is worried with the sudden tension around daehyun. it aint normal, the kid tried to analyze, cos this isnt the face he does when hes out of mood or just blue mood.

not appreciating the attention, daehyun shrugged everyone off. he breathed a chuckle, then forced his escape from the trio. zelo and youngjae followed behind him but stopped when himchan pulled them back. the motherly figure looked on, worried about the kid and the young heart that still hasnt settled. youngjae and zelo are then entrusted to finish a mission decided right then and there by himchan himself.

B.A.P had reported really early for their stage rehearsal that day. they went out for a few after their parts were done. according to plan, zelo and youngjae walked a little far off and seemed to just disappear in the distance. there was no crowd yet, so it was quite peaceful. the boys were not worried about being noticed, seeing how everyone was preoccupied with their own thoughts. they walked on with little chatter until they reached a garden past the court on the right. there was a bench in the centre of the space. they decided to settle there for a bit. immediate, jongup went up to the swing with himchan. daehyun looked on, a little smirk on his face. jongup was swinging, and himchan tried to follow suit. but the motherly figure fails miserably. somehow, the body coordination is off and he couldnt take flight like jongup can. the idiot laughed heartily, and tried to backflip on the swing. he lifted off at once, swung up high, tried to flip but his hand slipped. the confused one instinctively curled up into a ball and shifted his position. he landed sideways, and he was in the way of himchan's power kick. himchan, in an effort to stop hurting his brother, fell off his swing and landed right by jongup. a stunning silence ensued, and jongup rolled on top of himchan and gave his thanks. they laughed in that manner, an awkward position, jongup lying over himchan's face. the mother gave a little squeak and nudged jongup away. bang-nim and daehyun looked on and laughed along. it's his vision started to fade out and see another image instead. not too long was the image materializing that his vision focused back to reality. someone touched his shoulder, and the aura power that came with it was enriching. it was bang-nim.

daehyun's smile broke. it felt like bang-nim could see through him. he felt guilty suddenly, somehow.

'do you know what song is coming out from you right now, dae?' bang-nim's throaty heartfelt voiced oozed from his unmoving lips. daehyun's eye froze. he couldnt believe bang-nim could tell.

'it's our song, Coma,' bang-nim had to tighten his hold on daehyun's shoulder. it seemed as if daehyun's spirit slipped away. but bang-nim was more worried about daehyun's eyes. it seemed as if they lost their light. bang-nim prayed for the duo on the mission to return back soonest, with success riding along. their plan cannot fail, or it will take a long time enough for everyone to recover.

youngjae and zelo wanted to make a new pairing term between them while theyre on the job. they wanna be called "jaelo" which combines their name's last syllable. proud of this negligible achievement, the brain and the kidster started brainstorming. it was the kidster lo who dragged his partner hyung away before the rest of the members could spot them. the brain, though, has actually informed the team long before they set out, right after daehyun walked away, and when zelo was struggling in the gents'. it was a unanimous decision to achieve the target within the next two hours before the stage begins.

youngjae was the only one who saw the events of a struck daehyun. he is puzzled. what could have possibly made daehyun notice in the first place. while jae was deep in thought, zelo was fidgeting about. they were alone the shophouses district, but for the first time in a while, neither the kidster nor the brain had urges to shop. lo began walking down the aisle of shops, looking through windows, hoping to see something plain catch his eye. at the third shop, he paused, squinted his eyes but shifted back.

youngjae's thought process is coming through too slowly, until he suddenly got it. he snapped his fingers and his eyes shot wide open. he caught zelo walking back to him with a quirky expression. jae could tell the kidster doesnt understand the possibility either. for the next five minutes, jaelo was brisk but thorough in their discussion and explanation. they were soon down the aisle looking for their target again, confident and sure. didnt take them long though.

by the next corner aisle, in one of the cool stores, they found her.

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the last bite of my fried mackerel sandwich, and i couldnt be anymore happier. my girlfriends can only roll their eyes through giggles at what seemed like a disgusting piece of food art to them. i picked up my premium milk bubble tea and breathed content. my stomach is happy, my mood is happy, my girls are quite happy, so, i am happy. very happy.

though, a second later the eyes of my girls froze — in astonishment. i stretched out to wave my hand in front of them, but goosebumps appeared out of nowhere. my hand froze in mid-air, and a pair of soft, white hand clasped mine. my girls' eyes were drooling right into the owner of this pair of hands on mine. i followed their trail and locked eyes with beautiful, clear but desperate puppy dog eyes.

this is crazy.

i dont remember much but i remembered telling my ladies to go on ahead to the bookstore and i'll meet them there in a few. i definitely dont remember youngjae being open to skinship enough to be able to hold my hand like that and drag me out (after offering to return me safe and sound and do a selfie with my girls when the episode is over). i also dont remember zelo being off-character besides his shy-kid-awkward charms, but he is pushing me on through strong grips on my shoulders and im hastened enough to follow youngjae's glide.

i was, secretively, happy that i was being dragged around by two members of a group that i like. heck, i am in no condition able to communicate apart from unfathomable screech screams. fortunately, my tough feminine pride insists that i must stay a little irritated at two strangers, regardless, dragging me out without explanations. well, they sort of did explain to me — "no time to explain, sorry, but we have to go now and you have to come along wi-" — right when they pulled me off my seat from my last bite of mackerel sandwich.

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bap is amazing. yongguk is sunshine. zelo is like vitamin. youngjae is so fluffy! himchan is voldemort (lolol) jongup is brilliant! and daehyun?

jung daehyun is perfect. ♥

bap are just so lovely and they are rising! they are the embodiment of angels, and yongguk is like, Jesus!! the goodness in these kids are impossible to unsee because their sincerity is dripping everywhere. such innocence, and for once naivety isnt so ugly. it feels like theyre constantly giving fans strength to stay as good people and be a good package! theres hardly anything questionable abt them. the only (possible?) worrisome issue lies in the fact that these boys are different. a little too different, though? but really impressive boys in their own league of power-thought lyrics style.

similar in difference to infinite too because my primary babies had legit old school funky sounds and beats thats super outstanding! theyre their own league lolol incomparable!!!

but jungdaehyun is a whole new level.

Labels: boys, jungdaehyun ♥, my daebutt, 비에이피 B.A.P

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fallen, whatever's left of k-fah.
fifteenth april is the day i have fallen. whatever thats left of the korean pop junkie in me has succumbed to a coup d'état conformed of my limited bias group list. this ecstatic event, on my part, only has these three male groups to shift between: INFINITE, BAP, NELL. all amazing choices. all amazing bands. but there has to be the ultimate band. MY ultimate band.

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since even before their official debut date 06/09/11, this one group group has occupied that top spot. the only spot to obtain my entire scrutiny and celebration for them, with them. it had always been them. it had always been INFINITE. and thanks to them too, i began learning to appreciate NELL and their divine music. thanks to INFINITE, the woollim crew took control of the top three spots.
[epik high is not considered a pop threat despite their former mainstream line because obviously they are over a far wall called eternal exception for the love of hiphop and sessions; but yes, the top three irregardless were these three woollim crew.]

for almost three strong years, the love and support [from an asiatic distance] poured out effortlessly. it was beautiful. one particular song from their entire discography at that time has etched itself onto me. its an entity on its own, so much so that my itunes playcount feels the same, so much so that even my wife MelonLord agrees its the best song. its an emotional anthem, its my star. Can U Smile ? it was my kind of melancholic sunshine, and its a representative song for the most turbulent self-discovery period of mine.

however INFINITE, unfortunately, began to dim out in my heart through a particular subconscious effort. but it aint yo' normal 'effort'. truth it, its a reflex action. to think that the joke-habit reaction of flinching away at every SM related entity reached its definite crossroad when the most disgusting news headlined the korean entertainment industry: SM and Woollim Ent. Incs. merged. the flinching away slowly manifested itself to a whole new level!
the pain of having to decide whether to carry on cheering for my babies or to close the eyes of my heart towards my babies and support them for afar despite my blatant distaste for SM... i cannot deal.

so eventually, the strong foundation that was cemented for INFINITE began to crumble. pathetic, just because of the bloody merger of companies... but all the little details count into the bigger things. most definitely, i was very disappointed with myself. it took me a very long time to admit my defeat. sure, SM didnt entirely buy over woollim, and woollim's promised not to change their system. but (true) inspirits cant help but to judge and question the future. the phrase "what if.." is strong on our part.
we really didnt want to associate our woollim freedom with the cursed sm prison. i cannot walk away from my babies, and neither can i give some space when SM has barged into my precious territory. i couldnt decide. i couldnt bear. i couldnt take it. i couldnt accept it at all!

i walked right out of the k-scene after that. there didnt seem to be anything anymore thats worth staying for in that world of kimchi music. i abandoned whatever remains of it, all thanks to INFINITE (lolol no not really. its because of SM, actually) and i reverted to the sad, lonely spirit i once was before infinite came into my life.
i just really felt pathetic yknow. some might think its really pathetic. stupid, cos its just music and what not. move on. but no. to official fans of a group... growing together for the past 3 years, we've witnessed so much. together. its an indescribable feeling. after all, the chain of events that led me to begin my k-journey was out of curiosity, but i became especially glued to INFINITE despite Big Bang flying about everywhere back then. this special connection, this supposed fateful tie of a puny idiot from the little red dot to the amazing seven boys in the land of kimchi... speechless. i cant compare the feeling. i cant even begin to describe anything!

but BAM! it happened and i left. walked out. defeated. disgusted. disappointed. not long after, news floated to me. credits to the k-scene kids who updates me on INFINITE news. my candy, namstar grease woohyun, is forming a duo with key from shinee. shinee of sm. this subgroup. i just... no. MENTAL BREAKDOWN. PERIOD.

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i followed this new band for a bit in 2012. they just debuted. the music program that i tuned in that particular time was on tv. as we all know, the tv has such an amazing sound system, be it home surround or naught. i see them pass, but i swear one of the members' vocal left a deep grandmotherfucking impression on me. it took me awhile to walk away frm the 'distraction' and i eventually forgot about them. then over time, i kept watching their music videos. it was always playing somehow. on tv. that one particular music video. it caught my attention. it has been playing over and over fr a couple of days. i decided, if it plays again the next time, i'll give it a chance. i will listen. when it played again, i focused on the song. a familiar bell rang from the deepest impression that was scarred in my heart. it punched me. point blank.
that voice. i remembered looking up to watch the tv/music video but all i see was this boy among the other five boys. those eyes. oh my god, those hands. DAMN DAYUMSON HANDS! i scrambled to get closer to the tv screen. i needed to know the title of this song. i need to remember the title of this song. i need to know the band. this group is dangerous. that boy is dangerous. i am in grave danger.

but ive slipped. INFINITE's reign was questioned, albeit just a teeny weeny stammer. ive begun my search for the next addiction. the next few days' obsession to know and get involved with this newfound favourite group was stupefying. all it took was a song. Rain Sound.

and that boy. Jung Dae Hyun.

Labels: ★, boys, jungdaehyun ♥, my precious, talkative ninja, 비에이피 B.A.P

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