Wednesday, April 16, 2014, 4:14 am Β·
best, absolute, perfect γΌ a rose stalk
best, absolute, perfect γΌ a rose stalk
fallen, whatever's left of k-fah.
fifteenth april is the day i have fallen. whatever thats left of the korean pop junkie in me has succumbed to a coup d'Γ©tat conformed of my limited bias group list. this ecstatic event, on my part, only has these three male groups to shift between: INFINITE, BAP, NELL. all amazing choices. all amazing bands. but there has to be the ultimate band. MY ultimate band.
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since even before their official debut date 06/09/11, this one group group has occupied that top spot. the only spot to obtain my entire scrutiny and celebration for them, with them. it had always been them. it had always been INFINITE. and thanks to them too, i began learning to appreciate NELL and their divine music. thanks to INFINITE, the woollim crew took control of the top three spots.
[epik high is not considered a pop threat despite their former mainstream line because obviously they are over a far wall called eternal exception for the love of hiphop and sessions; but yes, the top three irregardless were these three woollim crew.]
for almost three strong years, the love and support [from an asiatic distance] poured out effortlessly. it was beautiful. one particular song from their entire discography at that time has etched itself onto me. its an entity on its own, so much so that my itunes playcount feels the same, so much so that even my wife MelonLord agrees its the best song. its an emotional anthem, its my star. Can U Smile ? it was my kind of melancholic sunshine, and its a representative song for the most turbulent self-discovery period of mine.
however INFINITE, unfortunately, began to dim out in my heart through a particular subconscious effort. but it aint yo' normal 'effort'. truth it, its a reflex action. to think that the joke-habit reaction of flinching away at every SM related entity reached its definite crossroad when the most disgusting news headlined the korean entertainment industry: SM and Woollim Ent. Incs. merged. the flinching away slowly manifested itself to a whole new level!
the pain of having to decide whether to carry on cheering for my babies or to close the eyes of my heart towards my babies and support them for afar despite my blatant distaste for SM... i cannot deal.
so eventually, the strong foundation that was cemented for INFINITE began to crumble. pathetic, just because of the bloody merger of companies... but all the little details count into the bigger things. most definitely, i was very disappointed with myself. it took me a very long time to admit my defeat. sure, SM didnt entirely buy over woollim, and woollim's promised not to change their system. but (true) inspirits cant help but to judge and question the future. the phrase "what if.." is strong on our part.
we really didnt want to associate our woollim freedom with the cursed sm prison. i cannot walk away from my babies, and neither can i give some space when SM has barged into my precious territory. i couldnt decide. i couldnt bear. i couldnt take it. i couldnt accept it at all!
i walked right out of the k-scene after that. there didnt seem to be anything anymore thats worth staying for in that world of kimchi music. i abandoned whatever remains of it, all thanks to INFINITE (lolol no not really. its because of SM, actually) and i reverted to the sad, lonely spirit i once was before infinite came into my life.
i just really felt pathetic yknow. some might think its really pathetic. stupid, cos its just music and what not. move on. but no. to official fans of a group... growing together for the past 3 years, we've witnessed so much. together. its an indescribable feeling. after all, the chain of events that led me to begin my k-journey was out of curiosity, but i became especially glued to INFINITE despite Big Bang flying about everywhere back then. this special connection, this supposed fateful tie of a puny idiot from the little red dot to the amazing seven boys in the land of kimchi... speechless. i cant compare the feeling. i cant even begin to describe anything!
but BAM! it happened and i left. walked out. defeated. disgusted. disappointed. not long after, news floated to me. credits to the k-scene kids who updates me on INFINITE news. my candy, namstar grease woohyun, is forming a duo with key from shinee. shinee of sm. this subgroup. i just... no. MENTAL BREAKDOWN. PERIOD.
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i followed this new band for a bit in 2012. they just debuted. the music program that i tuned in that particular time was on tv. as we all know, the tv has such an amazing sound system, be it home surround or naught. i see them pass, but i swear one of the members' vocal left a deep grandmotherfucking impression on me. it took me awhile to walk away frm the 'distraction' and i eventually forgot about them. then over time, i kept watching their music videos. it was always playing somehow. on tv. that one particular music video. it caught my attention. it has been playing over and over fr a couple of days. i decided, if it plays again the next time, i'll give it a chance. i will listen. when it played again, i focused on the song. a familiar bell rang from the deepest impression that was scarred in my heart. it punched me. point blank.
that voice. i remembered looking up to watch the tv/music video but all i see was this boy among the other five boys. those eyes. oh my god, those hands. DAMN DAYUMSON HANDS! i scrambled to get closer to the tv screen. i needed to know the title of this song. i need to remember the title of this song. i need to know the band. this group is dangerous. that boy is dangerous. i am in grave danger.
but ive slipped. INFINITE's reign was questioned, albeit just a teeny weeny stammer. ive begun my search for the next addiction. the next few days' obsession to know and get involved with this newfound favourite group was stupefying. all it took was a song. Rain Sound.
and that boy. Jung Dae Hyun.
fifteenth april is the day i have fallen. whatever thats left of the korean pop junkie in me has succumbed to a coup d'Γ©tat conformed of my limited bias group list. this ecstatic event, on my part, only has these three male groups to shift between: INFINITE, BAP, NELL. all amazing choices. all amazing bands. but there has to be the ultimate band. MY ultimate band.
###
since even before their official debut date 06/09/11, this one group group has occupied that top spot. the only spot to obtain my entire scrutiny and celebration for them, with them. it had always been them. it had always been INFINITE. and thanks to them too, i began learning to appreciate NELL and their divine music. thanks to INFINITE, the woollim crew took control of the top three spots.
[epik high is not considered a pop threat despite their former mainstream line because obviously they are over a far wall called eternal exception for the love of hiphop and sessions; but yes, the top three irregardless were these three woollim crew.]
for almost three strong years, the love and support [from an asiatic distance] poured out effortlessly. it was beautiful. one particular song from their entire discography at that time has etched itself onto me. its an entity on its own, so much so that my itunes playcount feels the same, so much so that even my wife MelonLord agrees its the best song. its an emotional anthem, its my star. Can U Smile ? it was my kind of melancholic sunshine, and its a representative song for the most turbulent self-discovery period of mine.
however INFINITE, unfortunately, began to dim out in my heart through a particular subconscious effort. but it aint yo' normal 'effort'. truth it, its a reflex action. to think that the joke-habit reaction of flinching away at every SM related entity reached its definite crossroad when the most disgusting news headlined the korean entertainment industry: SM and Woollim Ent. Incs. merged. the flinching away slowly manifested itself to a whole new level!
the pain of having to decide whether to carry on cheering for my babies or to close the eyes of my heart towards my babies and support them for afar despite my blatant distaste for SM... i cannot deal.
so eventually, the strong foundation that was cemented for INFINITE began to crumble. pathetic, just because of the bloody merger of companies... but all the little details count into the bigger things. most definitely, i was very disappointed with myself. it took me a very long time to admit my defeat. sure, SM didnt entirely buy over woollim, and woollim's promised not to change their system. but (true) inspirits cant help but to judge and question the future. the phrase "what if.." is strong on our part.
we really didnt want to associate our woollim freedom with the cursed sm prison. i cannot walk away from my babies, and neither can i give some space when SM has barged into my precious territory. i couldnt decide. i couldnt bear. i couldnt take it. i couldnt accept it at all!
i walked right out of the k-scene after that. there didnt seem to be anything anymore thats worth staying for in that world of kimchi music. i abandoned whatever remains of it, all thanks to INFINITE (lolol no not really. its because of SM, actually) and i reverted to the sad, lonely spirit i once was before infinite came into my life.
i just really felt pathetic yknow. some might think its really pathetic. stupid, cos its just music and what not. move on. but no. to official fans of a group... growing together for the past 3 years, we've witnessed so much. together. its an indescribable feeling. after all, the chain of events that led me to begin my k-journey was out of curiosity, but i became especially glued to INFINITE despite Big Bang flying about everywhere back then. this special connection, this supposed fateful tie of a puny idiot from the little red dot to the amazing seven boys in the land of kimchi... speechless. i cant compare the feeling. i cant even begin to describe anything!
but BAM! it happened and i left. walked out. defeated. disgusted. disappointed. not long after, news floated to me. credits to the k-scene kids who updates me on INFINITE news. my candy, namstar grease woohyun, is forming a duo with key from shinee. shinee of sm. this subgroup. i just... no. MENTAL BREAKDOWN. PERIOD.
###
i followed this new band for a bit in 2012. they just debuted. the music program that i tuned in that particular time was on tv. as we all know, the tv has such an amazing sound system, be it home surround or naught. i see them pass, but i swear one of the members' vocal left a deep grandmotherfucking impression on me. it took me awhile to walk away frm the 'distraction' and i eventually forgot about them. then over time, i kept watching their music videos. it was always playing somehow. on tv. that one particular music video. it caught my attention. it has been playing over and over fr a couple of days. i decided, if it plays again the next time, i'll give it a chance. i will listen. when it played again, i focused on the song. a familiar bell rang from the deepest impression that was scarred in my heart. it punched me. point blank.
that voice. i remembered looking up to watch the tv/music video but all i see was this boy among the other five boys. those eyes. oh my god, those hands. DAMN DAYUMSON HANDS! i scrambled to get closer to the tv screen. i needed to know the title of this song. i need to remember the title of this song. i need to know the band. this group is dangerous. that boy is dangerous. i am in grave danger.
but ive slipped. INFINITE's reign was questioned, albeit just a teeny weeny stammer. ive begun my search for the next addiction. the next few days' obsession to know and get involved with this newfound favourite group was stupefying. all it took was a song. Rain Sound.
and that boy. Jung Dae Hyun.
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