1. many things to do
i. web comic
ii. illustration packs
iii. animation reel

2. le big baby's coming home soon
i. standby his tamtams (a trip down to giant!)
ii. standby a new replaced-favourite penknife (a trip down to artfriend!! :3)
iii. hehe another surprise (hoping to make it in time lel)

3. theres still a less than half a year to go til 2017 ends!!
i. need to settle the issue about work
ii. slowly settle myself into a healthy routine of work and play and relaxxx
iii. i need to end 2017 with an above average 4-digit number; currently failing miserably

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TEEHEE SUBSEQUENT PHOTOS ARE THE RESULT OF HARD STALKING. SHOUT OUT TO THE ASSHOLE FOR DOCUMENTING SUCH SPECTACULAR PHOTOS OF MY MAN and nature too ♥ ♥ ♥ my girly heart is happy~ the photos are from their trip to Mount Rainier.





also, for adorable videos of my boo, click here and here hehehe
k til next time, the stalking adventure of fah for pang's adventure!!



p.s. i love me; i really appreciate me doing that triple face of pang fr myself HAHAHA im hilarious :3
p.p.s. look after yourself too okay dear. even if you have to do things alone, it's fine. if not you, who else, right? things will get easier for you in due time xoxo

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Well. Beach Fiesta got postponed to possibly February; which are both a good and bad thing seeing that I am terribly exhausted from school. it is truly worrisome because im beginning to think my perfect vision is slowly losing its prime. the constant staring at the digital screens both in school and at home has caused me incredible grief.. i hate the ions and other negative sciencey-terms-go-here things that affect my health in a purely holistic manner. my health is failing — not to an extensive degree since the fevers that occur are a normal stress sign so much so that all i need to do is to settle my assignments hahaha — but im constantly in a dilemma whether to rest appropriately for my recovery or carry on with my assignments because recovery takes weeks to happen oMG HELP ME.

/cough cough/



hell no i am not a fighter. but i have begun to start fighting properly, albeit little steps, because there are people who believe in me (surprisingly, i actually underestimated myself and the power of friendship) and others whom I need to prove wrong. it is absolutely not easy but nobody said it will be. after speaking to cat senpai and froggy senpai, the only thing left to do is to keep going, no matter how slow, and eventually i'll make it. pace myself well, press myself forward, and breathe. to stay true to myself also requires me to not be stupid; in which i have to realize there needs to be a border line to submission dates and quality standard. im still learning, hence university, so quality comes with experience and frequencies of doing the assignments. that is why pacing myself and pressing on are just so important. i know that now, so im doing it.

ive also realized that perfection is almost impossible. i believe ive ever only reached a maximum of 90% of my personal perfection grade twice in my life, and that just has to be a sure sign of impossibility. perfection, to me, means absolute control of myself towards my surroundings, my reactions, and my emotions/self-control. it also means my discipline and patience are top notch. but, again, it is difficult. then, again, nobody said it will be easy.

heck nobody every said i had to be perfect. i wanted to prove that it is possible.
what i missed out is that no sane human can always give their 100% every fucking day; and i had expected myself to be that inhuman who could. but i couldnt.




past few days and weeks have been enjoyable. im enjoying my assignments, the busy life is fun, im enjoying the time ive delegated to spend with friends and kids and family, im grateful almost everyday. what im definitely missing is my time for games A R G H H H H H H H H H but its okay i will. eventually. gradually. because the only thing thats stopping me is, if not sleep, time management. that kinda requires me to be able to juggle my assignments at ease, but i also have to know what im doing and am familiar with what the fuck im actually doing. anything that is not traditionally done means it will take up ten times more effort and time for me to complete. D:

well.

i think ive begun to get a feeling on my line/strokes style. still getting used to the mentality (and discipline?) of one-two-strokes-only sweeps. my confidence is boosted, and somehow, part of my creative storage suddenly bursts with space to absorb and unleash pretty crazy things that i never thought was possible coming from me. /shrugs/ i also guess my productivity's improved because, well, ive been alone, and animes and cartoons have been keeping me company while i do my work. i love the way ive been doing work, but i do get distracted sometimes. when im v e r y aware, i bring myself back. and it feels g r e a t you have no idea :3

the first cartoon to keep me company, after my usual studio ghibli runs, was avatar:the last airbender. and now, i finally told myself to start allowing onepiece visuals in. so, one piece is my company now. OH SANJI WOOHOO OMG ACE WOW LAW HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

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ao no exorcist is the goal to reach in terms of art and story. still, the best story plots are from the likes of one piece [shonen] and skip beat [shojo] but the artwork is still a priority. so, there. thats why you have rin's piece from the movie poster. /peace, yey!/
and i realized i came back to this kind of setting — left-handed float bases. a much preferred layout, i should say, and i am not complaining. honestly though, this is one of my favourite skins along with this. the simplicity in reaches is much wow. and all i need to access are here. /peace, yey, agen!/
seems that my only ever problem lies in fonts. typefaces are such chore, but theres only so much you can do when youre fixated on a small-sized point; e.g. 7.5pt is the best for me. works both aesthetically, spaces, and eye-tests HAHAHA

well. lemme get back to reading naruto now. YES, IVE FINALLY STARTED. YEY!! i think meeting john_p.r and evilbear on saturday helped me a lot with my *lack of* manga knowledge lolol ^///^

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