to those who know me, truly, the word popiah would strike a chord. it's the name i bestowed to my most trusted phone/s since secondary school, the everlasting nokias. Popiah v1, P0P1AH v2, P0P14H v3. all of them nokias. i take pride in my phone's durability, because it takes after my very own characteristics. i believe im as durable as my nokia aft a 4-storey fall. that kind of impact-survivor is what i aim t be. what i can be.

today, i truly believe i have rightfully bestowed the same nickname of truth and power to a dear friend. a lovely man. a beautiful human being. we may not have known each other for long, as compared to sheep and i, but i definitely believe in this. i definitely know 'us'. i dont need us to be given an official whatever, be it status, date or others. as long as i have your hand and you have mine, thats all that matters. this nickname, popiah, is also of love. an endearment that is only fathomable by me. no words can describe it, this emotion i feel. the fluff is so warm, so enlightening that i feel giddy because its so surreal.

love is indeed a dangerous weapon. i have never been so full, ever, in spirit, in soul. my mind has never been this much at ease. i know we may never last, but im not counting on that. i have been living everyday as they are, and so will i even more now. i never knew this is how love feels. i think this is how love is supposed to be. you want better, you do better, you become better in all goodness fr your partner, with your partner. eventually, the loose threads will be put together. it is a wonder how complete i am at the moment despite being so prepared in losing myself. if there were to be a descriptive visual of the way my life is being lived right now, it's that im living with my feet. im living with only my senses. im only living fr me. and yet, this is where i am now. i am with me, and i am with pang. what a lovely picture. love, it is empowering. and it is also deadly. but im prepared, as i have always been, for i have nothing left to lose..

though as of today, as of tonight, the only thing i have to lose is you.

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