i think ezen knows my blog??? either that or it's yikai who told ezen. its things like this that make me regret ranting out on anywhere. so if youre reading, im sorry i didnt reply your message. thankyou for not spamming me, and instead let me be. for someone who's eight years my junior, youre behaving like the older brother, ezen. well, im here to let you know im barely doing okay today.

i remembered that day when we gathered and introduced our favourite books during reading session.. how yikai didnt understand why i loved stories that has spirits and ghosts but of the mellow genre, and how jiahui plus some other girls liked my supernatural genre and compared between my tone and fiona's. and then ezen brought out his dinosaur and european cars encyclopedia. everyone was laughing and grinning, trying to get first dibs on whose book to read. (tbh, i didnt want to read anyone's. i just wanted to watch all of you all day lolol) kiyo was setting the table then — some vanilla thing, i remembered, cos kiyo was singing gackt's song and i was impressed lolol

i go back to days like these. and of days when ezen's smart mouth meant a nerf attack. "its okay to not belong to your own flesh and blood family. thats why you are made to socialize, to choose your own family that isnt already pre-'destined', if you believe in destiny. is kiyo family? are we family?" i cant remember what i did but i knew i left kiyo's place really uplifted.

things were extra rough today. but know that i'll be okay. i'll always be okay. thanks, guys. :3

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