hey. bb. its not something to worry about. for one, youre not alone in this. there are plenty of people out there, and being stuck in school such as dP makes it even harder.
two, you have to try and differentiate between the regular exhaustion and burnout. right now i feel youre burnout. if panic is no longer part of your nervous system, youre definitely burnt out. many people have their ways to cope but there are some that dont believe in anything until tested. and some methods sound downright ridiculous and rude but its the truth.. like the one im about to share with you.

understand that there are consequences with every action and think about whether you really wanna put yourself through more downfalls. sure, you will definitely not care at all, so at this point this is necessary. dont care at all. let all these negatives eat you. if you dont wanna do anything, dont. because you wont feel good and the work done can only make you feel darker. so let this all sink in.

because what pulled me through was i let all these emotions envelope me. no panic, no feels, just negatives, right, and then i just get sick of it. sick of being all these worthlessness my mind keeps telling me. the things that come back to me are not pleasant because what goes around comes around. so i began to hate it, and that emotion flipped. it took a damn long time because now im stuck a year behind you guys, but its helped me later than never.

i hope you find your release soon. because feeling this much emptiness is very very real. and its very very painful deep inside.

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