Saturday, January 11, 2025, 11:56 am Β·
And again, there is yet another shift
And again, there is yet another shift
For one reason or another, there is a change that I can feel from within. It is a great feeling, steering towards positivity β there is a certain lightness, but it didnt come easily. I had been going through some really rough, heavy, and dark thoughts because of finances heading into the new year. There is this thing I do which is to pre-empt my expenditure in preparation for my own personal spending. it had felt like I was starting 2025 in such a rough place, my funds being hella tight.
I prayed yesterday. Leaving all my worries on the prayer mat, I was internally shouting to Allah to relieve me of my pain. part of me is angry, frustrated that I am still struggling when I work so much. often, the thought of a conversation from a previous grab ride returns β "dont associate/adjunct lecturers get paid a lot? you're earning well". No, no I am not earning well.
I have re-calibrated my priorities for 2025. I want to focus on my art again, so that I can start my journey to mirror the life of Loish. Im starting really late, and in really tough economy, so I need to get my head in the game and be smart about things. I want to do the things I wanna do, with whatever amount of time I want, untied and unbounded by things. but I have lofty dreams and desires, what kak s mentioned is also accurate. yes, it is something that I aware of too, and it is a constant battle within myself. so one of the concerns is that, in order to reach my aim of earning 5k each month, if I were to focus on SP alone, I will need to hit at least a minimum of 15 hours a week, and a LeX-OSIP trip every semester break. that is a lot of stresses on my person, but I truly need it.
apart from the art and career that I desire, there is also the need to purchase my own house from mid-2027 once I hit 35 on my birthday. this is not just a desire, it is a desperate need since like eons ago. there is a lot of money in that kind of investment. on top of that initiation, there is also the fact that I will need to maintain the funds in order to sustain the kind of lifestyle I want. a simple life, but there will definitely be a bit of money required in my bank, my wallet, and the other fund reservoirs (i.e. CPF, SingCapital investments, etc). a lot of planning comes with it, at least with the kind of person that I am, and it includes looking after my schedule well.
I have a 2-year plan, and as advised by kak s, a 5-year plan. Working hard now will have huge repays in the future, something I desperately need as I continue to age according to my own terms which, in itself, is a constant obstacle that I needa overcome bahaha
it'd be nice to provide a progress update every few months, so we'll see if I can do it.
I prayed yesterday. Leaving all my worries on the prayer mat, I was internally shouting to Allah to relieve me of my pain. part of me is angry, frustrated that I am still struggling when I work so much. often, the thought of a conversation from a previous grab ride returns β "dont associate/adjunct lecturers get paid a lot? you're earning well". No, no I am not earning well.
I have re-calibrated my priorities for 2025. I want to focus on my art again, so that I can start my journey to mirror the life of Loish. Im starting really late, and in really tough economy, so I need to get my head in the game and be smart about things. I want to do the things I wanna do, with whatever amount of time I want, untied and unbounded by things. but I have lofty dreams and desires, what kak s mentioned is also accurate. yes, it is something that I aware of too, and it is a constant battle within myself. so one of the concerns is that, in order to reach my aim of earning 5k each month, if I were to focus on SP alone, I will need to hit at least a minimum of 15 hours a week, and a LeX-OSIP trip every semester break. that is a lot of stresses on my person, but I truly need it.
apart from the art and career that I desire, there is also the need to purchase my own house from mid-2027 once I hit 35 on my birthday. this is not just a desire, it is a desperate need since like eons ago. there is a lot of money in that kind of investment. on top of that initiation, there is also the fact that I will need to maintain the funds in order to sustain the kind of lifestyle I want. a simple life, but there will definitely be a bit of money required in my bank, my wallet, and the other fund reservoirs (i.e. CPF, SingCapital investments, etc). a lot of planning comes with it, at least with the kind of person that I am, and it includes looking after my schedule well.
I have a 2-year plan, and as advised by kak s, a 5-year plan. Working hard now will have huge repays in the future, something I desperately need as I continue to age according to my own terms which, in itself, is a constant obstacle that I needa overcome bahaha
it'd be nice to provide a progress update every few months, so we'll see if I can do it.
Labels: #suchafah, a slap of reality, money talk, reflection
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