Thursday, October 13, 2011, 8:19 pm Β·
when was the last exhaustion
when was the last exhaustion
[THIS WEEK I KEPT THINKING A DAY BEHIND — MONDAY WAS FELT LIKE SUNDAY. AND TODAY'S THURSDAY BUT IT WAS FELT LIKE A WEDNESDAY GOD HELP OR SOMEONE JUST GET ME A FUCKING CALENDAR]
old friends.
these are the people that have stayed with you for such a long period of time that sometimes you forget how precious they are. if you want to label others as "family", these are the very people well-deserved for that title. there might be times that you feel like punching them in the face for being ridiculous too. ridiculous, because change is normal. change, because these are things that go well with the term called life.
so, humans are the funniest creatures alive, apart from clowns. but then clowns are sad. there are certain sad things that are actually really beautiful, and they can sometimes be the light to happiness. i say this because i've been feeling beaten and broken for so long that i forgot to give space for myself. space to breathe, to smile and laugh heartily. space to have fun and live happily. space to express one's self and most importantly, space to just sing.
yesterday, after spooktacular event briefing was done two hours after lunch, fnad and i were having thoughts of staying out. karaoke plans were always about but we never had time for it. and so it happened. on that very same time and day. i called ly and she was free cos it's a wednesday and we headed out for fnad's place from before at orchard. it was impromptu but it was fun. like, really fun. and i lost my voice. all the songs, all the chaos, all the monotones and off-pitches, all the whack breathe-from-diaphragm talk, all the funky crap.. it was really enjoyable. ♥
a couple of days back i'd been painting my room. this sudden revamp is not new, actually. it's a pretty old plan. grey walls, new furniture, a new slanted desk top ala tom and jerry. yeahp, it's old. and it took me 4.5 days to finish painting the two coats of white before grey layer. my room is pathetic, but as of two days ago, it's perfect. cosy, small, warm and light. the grey i got was light. so light that when you step into the room you actually think it's dark. ^^
humans are just so funny. we are hilarious. we would be sitting and weeping in depression for hours and then suddenly we'd be up and running again the very next minute. it took a lot from me, however, to come back again. i am myself now, and unfortunately, i have changed. again. and right now im just as confused as ever. confused and yet, im still determined to do so many things that are still unreachable in my current state.
family's a constant hover of a question mark. when im upset, they are just never there for me. i dont know how im supposed to let it all sink in.. my family isnt together. we are just so apart.
but ive defied them, and now i shall try to see what more i can do with whatever piece of life i have left.
oh the irony. i am actually happy but this wall of posts just sounds really sad. haha, oh well. (:
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P.S. when you have discovered a doppleganger, sometimes it's very hard to resist the forces of nature trying to bind us together and call ourselves twins. or maybe it's just a case of mistake identity
ashri is my twin. i will smother him from now on, for making me laugh constantly everytime im on Larry
old friends.
these are the people that have stayed with you for such a long period of time that sometimes you forget how precious they are. if you want to label others as "family", these are the very people well-deserved for that title. there might be times that you feel like punching them in the face for being ridiculous too. ridiculous, because change is normal. change, because these are things that go well with the term called life.
so, humans are the funniest creatures alive, apart from clowns. but then clowns are sad. there are certain sad things that are actually really beautiful, and they can sometimes be the light to happiness. i say this because i've been feeling beaten and broken for so long that i forgot to give space for myself. space to breathe, to smile and laugh heartily. space to have fun and live happily. space to express one's self and most importantly, space to just sing.
yesterday, after spooktacular event briefing was done two hours after lunch, fnad and i were having thoughts of staying out. karaoke plans were always about but we never had time for it. and so it happened. on that very same time and day. i called ly and she was free cos it's a wednesday and we headed out for fnad's place from before at orchard. it was impromptu but it was fun. like, really fun. and i lost my voice. all the songs, all the chaos, all the monotones and off-pitches, all the whack breathe-from-diaphragm talk, all the funky crap.. it was really enjoyable. ♥
a couple of days back i'd been painting my room. this sudden revamp is not new, actually. it's a pretty old plan. grey walls, new furniture, a new slanted desk top ala tom and jerry. yeahp, it's old. and it took me 4.5 days to finish painting the two coats of white before grey layer. my room is pathetic, but as of two days ago, it's perfect. cosy, small, warm and light. the grey i got was light. so light that when you step into the room you actually think it's dark. ^^
humans are just so funny. we are hilarious. we would be sitting and weeping in depression for hours and then suddenly we'd be up and running again the very next minute. it took a lot from me, however, to come back again. i am myself now, and unfortunately, i have changed. again. and right now im just as confused as ever. confused and yet, im still determined to do so many things that are still unreachable in my current state.
family's a constant hover of a question mark. when im upset, they are just never there for me. i dont know how im supposed to let it all sink in.. my family isnt together. we are just so apart.
but ive defied them, and now i shall try to see what more i can do with whatever piece of life i have left.
oh the irony. i am actually happy but this wall of posts just sounds really sad. haha, oh well. (:
/*
P.S. when you have discovered a doppleganger, sometimes it's very hard to resist the forces of nature trying to bind us together and call ourselves twins. or maybe it's just a case of mistake identity
ashri is my twin. i will smother him from now on, for making me laugh constantly everytime im on Larry
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